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.​.​.​Before It Gets Better

by Grizzly Bear Therapy

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You swore me off, crossed your heart and everything. You pinky swore that this would never happen again. Got lock and key for every single feeling. You take them out whenever you're feeling alone. And I'm moving on because you're moving on. And you're moving on because I'm moving on. We would do anything but say what we mean. Your heart breaks, but you couldn't fix it. It's no good. There's something in the way. You tell me that I'm only dreaming. You better start believing. I swore you off, crossed my heart and everything. I pinky swore that this would never happen again. Got lock and key for every single feeling. I take them out whenever I'm feeling alone. And I'm moving on because you're moving on. And you're moving on because I'm moving on. We would do anything but say what we mean. Your heart breaks, but you couldn't fix it. It's no good. There's something in the way. You tell me that I'm only dreaming. You better start believing. Your heart breaks, but you couldn't fix it. It's no good. There's something in the way. You tell me that I'm only dreaming. You better start believing. Well, I know you don't care. I don't care. And you know I don't care. You don't care. Well, I know you don't care. I don't care. It sounds like we both care a lot.
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Well, I like walking in the rain. Too bad it gives me athlete's foot. I guess I'll buy some Lamisil and think of you as I rub it in. Oh shit, that wasn't smooth. Maybe I'll buy some Ex-Lax too. Then I'll feel empty for a reason far more reasonable than you.
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I never had much to say, but no one listened anyway. I've never been much for brains, but no one needs them anyway. I'll just watch my life circling down the drain. I'll just watch my life with a smile upon my face. I'll just watch my life as it goes up in flames. I'll just let it burn. It's all alright if I just say, I've got it all figured out. I never had much to take. They took it all anyway. I guess it was my mistake. Should have never tried anything. I'll just watch my life circling down the drain. I'll just watch my life with a smile upon my face. I'll just watch my life as it goes up in flames. I'll just let it burn. It's all alright if I just say, I've got it all figured out. If you never do anything, you're not disappointed. If you never chase anyone, you'll never be broken. But where's the fun in that?
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Well, I'd buy you millions of roses. But I would probably die because I'm allergic. I bet that you'd show me That you are something sweet. Darling, if you knew me, You'd know sweets hurt my teeth. But I think that you're worth it.
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I’ve got a notebook full of jokes because I think I’m funny. Although it doesn’t really matter. No one laughs anyway. And even if they do, you can tell it’s out of pity Because they don’t even laugh at the right times. I thought I had a spark, could turn into a light. Is anybody out there? The world’s an awful place. Still, everybody smiles. I guess I missed the punchline. Life’s funny if you never really think about it. You’ll capsize but you’re laughing if you’re in on the joke. A trust fall where you’re leaning into next to nothing. Your heart hurts, but you’ll laugh until you forget how it broke. Well, if I’ve got to go out, I’m gonna go out laughing. And on the way down to hell, I’ll be splitting my sides. And when the devil sees me, he’s gonna think I’m happy But the joke’s on him. I’m just hiding the pain. I thought I had a spark, could turn into a light. Is anybody out there? The world’s an awful place. Still, everybody smiles. I guess I missed the punchline. Life’s funny if you never really think about it. You’ll capsize but you’re laughing if you’re in on the joke. A trust fall where you’re leaning into next to nothing. Your heart hurts, but you’ll laugh until you forget how it broke.
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None of us knew that this would be the last time that we would be together. None of us knew that this would be the last time we felt part of something bigger. I don't recall anyone asking about the time that was on the clock. I don't recall. I don't remember it, but I bet the writing was on the wall. Maybe it's not worth the memory if we knew what we know now. Maybe it's not worth remembering, but it sticks with me somehow.
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I wanna get hit by a bus, But at the very last second I’d jump away. It’s the kind of near death experience that’s the kick in the pants I need. Maybe I won’t mope around. Maybe I won’t stare at the ground when I talk to girls. I’ll have a whole brand new outlook on everything. Nothing can beat that feeling. Well, I’ll be your favorite optimist. I’m positive. I’ve got the thickest skin. No one will waste their breath on it, Because nothing can ever shake this grin. Stumble back to my normal life. I see everybody else is so mundane. If they miss their chance for happiness, the guilt should certainly fall on me. Maybe I’ll turn the tides. Maybe the world will let me rethink their lives. The only conclusion is that they’ll all love me As I try to share that feeling. Well, I’ll be your favorite optimist. I’m positive ‘til you’re sick of it. No one will hear the end of this. Because who wouldn’t want that feeling? Soon enough a few years will pass. Everyone I’d ever cared for had run away. When I quenched their thirst for happiness, it was more like them drowning. Maybe I’ll ignore the signs. Maybe I’ll fight the urge to rethink my life. Why did it feel so perfect when I wasn’t me? Too late to find new feelings. Well, I’ll be your favorite optimist. The façade stays. The insides dim. And I’ll let the shower burn my skin As I try to chase that feeling.
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I never saw crying as weakness, But I never had a good reason. Suffering always made itself right at home. Still no response, maybe I am too callused? I worry, on the off chance, that something good actually happens, I won't know how to react, and I'll completely miss it again.
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I’ve got to pop a lot of pills to fight these wicked allergies, So I’ve got to pick them up from the local pharmacy. I didn’t expect much different from the usual. I couldn’t find the words when I saw the prettiest pharmacy girl. I can tell there’s something special about her. I know I’ve got a thing for lab coats, but I swear there’s something else. She’s so charming and smart, an intellectual with heart. And I bet that she could tell a killer knock-knock joke. Do you have the time? ‘Cause I’m waiting for you. I hope you don’t mind if I say, (Pharmacy girl) Why’s it always pharmaceutical? (Pharmacy girl) Tell me all about the side effects. (Pharmacy girl) When every breath’s closer to our last, (Pharmacy girl) I don’t want to waste my time with anyone but you. And I swear I can communicate like a normal person. But in the moment, I don’t know if what I want to say is too forward. “Tell me about yourself.” So I divert and joke about the card reader and the angry noises it makes. It wasn’t that funny, but she laughed anyway. Do you have the time? ‘Cause I’m waiting for you. I hope you don’t mind if I say, (Pharmacy girl) Why’s it always pharmaceutical? (Pharmacy girl) Tell me all about the side effects. (Pharmacy girl) When every breath’s closer to our last, (Pharmacy girl) I don’t want to waste my time with anyone but you. I’ve got to stop licking doorknobs to catch a new disease. Nothing serious, but bad enough for you to see me. Because at best, I only see you once a month, and that’s not enough. So I’ll take one for the team. Are we even on the same team? Are we even in the same league? Do you have the time? ‘Cause I’m waiting for you. I hope you don’t mind if I say, (Pharmacy girl) Why’s it always pharmaceutical? (Pharmacy girl) Tell me all about the side effects. (Pharmacy girl) When every breath’s closer to our last, (Pharmacy girl) I don’t want to waste my time with anyone but you.
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I'm a pessimistic cynic in search of a girl. Preferably pretty, but it's much more about Whether she's allergic to peanuts. They're a shocking portion of what I eat. Spend most of my time just worried about Things that I could say wrong and ruin our night. Maybe I am just too hard on myself. There's more than one person in this equation. And if she's a vegan, I'm sorry I really am. But if it's you or the chicken nuggets, I wish I could say differently, But I'm choosing dinosaurs every time. And watching The Office, on its own, is not a personality. And being an alcoholic doesn't reflect on you positively. I may not be handsome or suave, but at least, I'm an individual. Maybe I'm better off on my own if no one brings enough to the table.
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I got a letter from an old friend. It got me thinking about how I lost you again. And if I wasn't so self-centered, Maybe things would be different. I always knew it was obvious I was making mistake after mistake. But no one told me what the signs looked like, So I started to see them whenever I'd want to. And if it's all the same to you, I think I'll just whine about my problems. And if I flap my gums enough, Maybe I will figure out how to solve them. And if they say you need an optimistic view to enjoy life, I've got news for you. I'd be happy too if life would stop twisting the knife. I got a letter from an old friend. It got me thinking about where my life's heading. Always chasing pretty girls who don't like me, Maybe things could be different? I always knew I was awkward, So I started to build up confidence. It didn't change much of anything, But now I do what I want, whenever I want to. And if it's all the same to you, I think I'll just whine about my problems. And if I flap my gums enough, Maybe I will figure out how to solve them. And if they say you need an optimistic view to enjoy life, I've got news for you. I'd be happy too if life would stop twisting the knife. I got a letter from an old friend. They say it gets worse before it gets better. Every day, I hope for the latter. And even if it hurts, I'll take every licking Because even the worst is better than nothing. (I'm doing alright here on my own. Maybe I don't need anyone.)

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Here's some long songs and some short songs. If you take the average, that isn't weird at all.

These weren't recorded in the usual basement. Instead, they were performed in the penthouse of a crappy apartment complex. How luxurious.

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released October 10, 2020

All songs written and performed by Jack Walsh.

Bathroom times scheduled by the Jack Walsh digestive tract.
Annoying background hum provided by various household appliances.
Jokes during production provided by Jack Walsh to an empty room.

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Songs by a sweaty dude in a cold basement.

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